Hi readers, another week of not posting .
well i just do not have the time as works is piling up like hills over my office.
and i`ve been really busy with outings with my girls
Anw. its been a week, hasnt it , since i said i wna give up.
well. truth to be told. i still hasnt really got over him yet.
Everyday , he is the first to come to my mind when i wake up. and he is also the person i think of before i drift off to my dreamland.
Everyday i wonder , will he call again , and when saturday came , my misses for him grows strong as he is the person to morning call me for work in the past , or text me to accompany pass my time.
And i misses those morning texts , misses those calls , his deep manly voice with a lil smile i can detect while asking me to wake up.
i miss youA , And often i wonder , did i ever cross your mind too? because you seem to be living well without my texts , without my concern and my voice.
Am i that easy for you to forget?
does those conversations means nothing to you at all?
I feel so much like you will one day see my blog, see how much do i miss you , see how much i crack my brain just to send a single reply to you in order for our convo to continue. see how much i really like you. and how much i wna be with you.
Everyday , all i want is for me to miss you a little lesser .
i`ve been finding subs for you since u left me one week ago.
and all i ever see in them is you. i would compare. i keep comparing . it seems like i want to find someone exactly like you. and the rest wont do.
Its really clear to me now. Maybe i should stop finding love.
Because in the end. all i do is hurting them and hurt myself.
Maybe. yes , now i should really , stop and instead let love find me on its own?
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